CAPTAIN INSENSITIVE

when i first considered starting a blog i figured it would be sort of an anonymous online journal, where total strangers would stumble upon my posts, be intrigued/offended and never meet me. i had absolutely no intention of ever showing my blog to anyone i knew personally. this would allow me to be unbiased in my judgements of others and keep things edgy without any "real world" repercussions. not a bad idea really. but the reality it is, the internet is not as full of inquisitive blog-searching sheep as i had thought. so i branched out.

sure, you might be thinking that i, captain insensitive--the perpetual heckler, would have no problem speaking my mind, even if it insults or offends someone. and that is fairly true, actually. i try my best to truthful and forthright and i have a tendency to do it in a peanut gallery style. but even i have my limits. i have a pretty good idea of the things that would really set off my closer associates. and so i usually dont bother bringing up those things. im talking about stuff like someone talking too much, or scaring visitors away, or stealing love interests. ya know, the stuff that would crush a person if i told them what i really think of them...

and dont assume that i am the only one who thinks like this. i know that i do stuff that pisses people off and i can sometimes tell when they bite their lip so they dont offend me. everyone does it. everyone passes judgment--even if they feel hypocritical about it. it is only human. so what is the big deal then? why cant we bring up certain things that really piss us off about our friends? isnt that the only way to resolve the situation and not let is fester and build up? even though i dont always follow it, i do believe people should bring these sorts of things up, at the very least so the other person knows about it and can try to minimize it when you are around. and really you would be doing them a favor since you are probably not the only person to notice it...

so what? so people hold grudges without ever telling the other person. who cares, right? the fact of the matter is, you have to decide whether holding a secret grudge is a fair trade for the uncomfortable revealing conversation.

as for me, i will continue to poke fun at my anonymous friends for all the blog-reading sheep...

let the paranoia begin...